I dunno why I'm writing this here, I just felt like.. I wrote this essay for UnitTest2 English Language Paper.. I kinda wrote this from my heart, so please read and enjoy :D
On a normal Saturday evening, I sit back on my couch, with a tub of popcorns in hand, the crunchy chewing noise reverberating throughout the room, and suddenly the blasting noise of the home theatre system inducing shock in me, indicating that a movie has started. I mostly prefer to watch classics (or the movies I've already watched years ago) during this time of the week,
It was, Terminator 2: Judgement Day. A true-blue James Cameron action flick. I could remember every dialogue spoken by the characters of John and Sarah Connor. My Mind started drifting...
Four years ago, I was a regular, faceless, unpopular student in my school. No one knew or cared about me. Now, when I have friends, family and happiness, I wonder, just HOW did I survive those times? How did I Live??
I remember that I had a great love for computers and games. I'd beg my Dad everytime we went to Popular to get me the latest edition of CHIP Singapore, a magazine for IT Techies and consumers alike. My day was filled with thoughts of computers, hard-disk drives, games, even stories of those games!
I had also developed a liking for basketball, which, in a short time, grew from a spark to a fire. I'd spend every free period on the court, dribbling the ball, and scoring from different angles.
I guess it'd be safe to say, computers, games, and basketball were my supports and contributed to a large part of my identity.
Also, I never had a thing for studies. Since my early childhood, I knew my calling was in the Business\Commerce field. Studying Science, History, Geography was seemingly pointless. I used to score in English and Maths, though.
Phew. All that, was four years ago. I feel changed. Alot. Now, these four years seem like a lifetime to me.
I'm not a nobody anymore. People know me in my school, in my family-ties, and I no longer feel alone. I can turn to people for advice, help, of just to share a laugh. I'm no longer dependent on machines and a sport to fill me with happiness. I have people for that now.
However, the intimacy I shared with computers and basketball has not all disappeared. It still exists, though not as strong. Somedays, when I'm feeling blue, I still look towards basketball and computers.
In the past one and a half years, my interest in studies has been restored. I remember how easily I learnt something seven/eight years ago, I still fell that same excitement of learning today.
I've also started watching many movies, and listening to songs of my favourite genre. I've even started learning guitar(which has been a dream since 1999, and still is).
I also remember being (left) alone, to myself in the past. I guess that's why occasionally I'm uncomfortable around people and choose to be left on my own.
I'd say, I'm part-happy, part-sad because of these changes. I'm a very sentimental and emotional person, and don't like things to change (probably because alot has changed in a such a short time). Why can't things be the same? After twenty-, thirty-years? Why can't a time last forever?
See, I'm getting sentimental again. I'll try to concentrate on the postive points... I'm better. I'm more confident. I'm clear on my future. I have a social life.
That makes me smile. Oh, the movie's about to get over.. Arnold (= Terminator = Hero) pushes the villain (a thinking-body of liquid metal with the ability to metamorphose into any shape, hence 'undefeatable' ) into molten lava, ending the movie. I can't believe I spent two hours and twenty minutes.. Time flies when you're nostalgic.
How did you like it ??
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